I went fishing today!!! And I'm so tired!!! And I went fishing today!! Met up with frens at 7am to go fishing at St Kilda. It's some chartered boat thing. First thing, I didn't sleep much. Slept at 1am, woke at 4am, couldnt sleep anymore. So I kept myself energize but tons of Starburst... gift of life. Second, it was cold!!! FRIGGING COLD. I was literally chattering my teeth off. Thirdly, I caught fish!!!! Lots of them! Well, not lots of them, but a fair number. Here fishies fishies fishies!!!! Wasn't too bad, until we were on our way home and the boat ran out or fuel. Yes, we were stranded for 30 min. Left dangling until someone came to refuel us. First time experience. Muz be my luck =) Got lots of fish back home now!!! Fish and chips, fish head curry, fish soup, fish satee etc etc etc. Mmmmmm.... i dun even like fish.

Watched LXG yesterdae, that's League of Extraordinary Gentlemen to you non-movie goin pple. Watched it with semi-high hopes. Found that it sucked big time. It sux more than CA2.... that's quite a feat. As in plot, execution and just plain.... ugh. It was bad pple. DUN WATCH IT. Could have spent my money watching so many other shows out there but noooooo, I had to waste money on LX bloody G. Moral of the story, shows with Sean Connery are sucking quite a lot now. He's sinking fast, shld just retire. Y wun he retire???? He's destroying his image as a credible actor? Sigh, some things are better left alone. Ah well. On another note, 2nd chapter of the story is up. Wrote it last night when I wasn't sleeping. And now... I sleep.

Song now: Chega de Saudade by Jane Monheit
Quote of the post: "The buildings are falling like dominoes!!!" - random Indian soldier in LXG

ok... the blog's changed again, fiddling with the archiving system... if it doesn't work... I apologize greatly ^_^ But im not very interesting anywaes rite? Btw, exam timetable is out. I finish on the 19th... dun even noe wat to study. Ah well, got my lucky dice with me, so nothing to worry about! Wat? It's an essay type exam? WAT????? Nooo... you cant do this to me!!! YOU CANT!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO........ ahem... er... does Uni take bribes?

Anywaes, I've just finished my first chapter of a new short story im working. And while I was uploading the chapter, Had the pleasant surprise to chance upon another one of my stories. A very unfinished one but mine nevertheless. Will probably take me a lifetime to finish. Anywaes, the one im working on is called Villain and it can be found here. Do read and review yar? I'll try to finish it as soon as I can and then work on Broken Sword. Dun flame me too much yar?

Song now: Girl from Ipanema (Tall and tan and young and lovely....)
Quote of the post: none today... not very intellectual today i think ^_^

Wow... juz wrote half a chapter on a story i'm working on. It's amazing what one can do when listening to beautiful jazz. I've been on a jazz binge recently, not sure why too. Maybe it's the frustration of having all my jazz songs stuck in that bloody CPU which nobody wants to open up. Not sure what I'm tokking about? Dun bother about it gd pple...juz trust me... trust....me ^_______________^
Anywaes, will do something once the chapter is done. Then you can start flaming it.

I woke up at 830am today! Can u imagine that??? SOOOO EARLY!!! ME!!! PEP!!!! 830AM!!!! Damn Johan dragged me out to do air tickets but I couldn't do mine for some reason. Person said no space. Well, passing it on to Dad to help me out from Singapore. Wanna go home earlier!!!!
And hugs to Amanda and Candice again! You guys... erm.. girls have a great talent for making a day more fun and well... fun! Those places we visited were sooooo funky... except those women ones (women *rolls eyes*). Heh, I want a water cooler!!!! What for I dun noe, but I want one! And a watch. And and.... money. Damn. Knew there was something wrong. Heh, gals, you noe, my frens we met were complaining how lucky I was to have two beautiful women on each side. They kept asking me to share you two with them ^_^; I gallantly refused of course (NEVER!!! YOU HEAR ME?? NEVER!!!!!! THEY ARE MINE!!!!!!) Annnywaes, thanx for a great day! Good luck for ur work *dances cause I dun have annnnny*

I think I shall sleep now

Song now: On the Street where you live - by Harry Connick Jr.
Quote of the post: "Don't let the suitcase of cheese become your fork and spoon." - Marie from Everybody Loves Raymond

Last Promise

Sun on my face
Butterflies in the sky
Lying in this place
Fairy tales in my eyes
Things are not the same
Don't worry they don't bite
Love's more than a game
It doesn't have any sides

Think it over
In the sun
Or when the Goddess of the Moon
Dances far away in June
Holding hands
With the one you love, the one
And the world is yours
The world is yours

Clouds they come and go
I remember you running far
Don't lie to me I know
I've known you when u were a star
Driving down the road
Love like grass, on the side
Things are not the same
Don't worry they don't bite

Think it over
In the sun
Or when the Goddess of the Moon
Dances far away in June
Holding hands
With the one you love, the one
And the world is yours
The world is yours

Wings, feathers
Leaves in cold weathers
Hunting dogs in chilly snow
What comes will come what goes will go
Love, tears
Arms that hug away those fears
Hand in hand we skip past
And the promise we once kept will last

Think it over
In the sun
Or when the Goddess of the Moon
Dances far away in June
Holding hands
With the one you love, the one
And the world is yours
The world is yours

Think it over
In the sun
Or when the Goddess of the Moon
Dances far away in June
Holding hands
With the one you love, the one
And the world is yours
The world is yours

PEP

This is for Denise, who's goin through a hard time in love. Hang in there babe. Things will work out. They always do.

It's 5am, cold, frens have all gone home and I've just watched a 3 hour movie. But i'm not tired. Nor am I depressed anymore. I suddenly realise how frens, a nice italian dinner, and a whole packet? bottle? of Tic Tacs can make a person much more cheery and happy. Probably am the luckiest guy in the world. Good thing? Definitely =) Huggles to those who showed worried faces, huggles to those who didn't too. I'm not Mr Grumpy Face anymore!!! And Candice!!! Getting together for dinners is good idea no? We could pore over ur script and make it biiiig!!!!! BIG!!!!!! Wheeee... still sugar-high. Let's not sleep tonite. Nah, who needs sleep. Better than drugs man. Not that I take it of course ^_^
Just watched LOTR: The Two Towers on DVD, was excellent as always. Makes me wanna read a David Gemmel book. For those poor fools out there, David Gemmel is a fantasy writer who does truely the best heroic fantasy out there. He's like my idol! The battles in his books are awe-inspiring and you can never tell what is going to happen. Heard about Gene Wolf too, wanna try him out. Anywaes, LOTR makes me wanna learn Elvish. Imagine swearing at someone you dun like in Elvish. How fun is that???? Sounds like a mix between French, German, and Arabic. I want to sound cool too!!!!!!

Still high. Shall Xenosaga. Yes.. shall... my preciousssss~~~~~ Btw, here's an interesting site. Wat's ur Elvish name? Mines Elessar Léralondë. I'm so cool.

Song now: Yellow by Tania Chua (it is sooo good!!!!)

Quote of the post: "Hello God it's me, are you awake?" Tanya Chua

	Cheer Bear You're the Care Bear cheerleader! Your spunky personality and optimisim lifts everyone's spirit. Though you want everyone to be happy, you stand your ground on issues you feel strongly about and this can bring disunity among your friends. Despite this, you are a true believer in working together.
Take the Which Care Bear Are You? Quiz!

not so pathetic after all huh?

I am a loser. I am a liar, a pathetic insect undeserving of frens. When my frens call me the great pretender, they were rite. I have no ME. I'm a mask, many masks and behind them, I cannot even find out the real me. I am a hypocrite. I do things I don't believe me, I say things I don't care about. I crave attention and so I lie. I lie to get attention. I am selfish. I do things for my own gain. I leech off others' happiness. I don't deserve happiness. I don't even allow myself to enjoy my fren's bday because I am selfish and wallow in my own self-pity. Even now, I play the tragic hero. I smile and I laugh, all paper faces to a world which believes it. People see me as PEP, Eeps, Pang Ee Pin, always entertaining. I see myself as Ee Pin, the loser. I laugh and I kid, hoping to make pple happy, to gain their trust without an inch of mine, drawing attention away from my inner self while tricking them into trusting the paper me. I secretly hope for breakups in relationships and think about whole romantic escapades in which one falls in love. I do not deserve love. I do not deserve life. But I can't end it. I'm too much of a coward. I say I want to live because of what it has to offer. I have a family, frens, money, education. Everything. But I still say life sucks. That's selfishness. That's me. Loser. I do not deserve love. I want to cry. Ahhh... don't bother feeling worried... I won't go mad. I won't do anything bad. Life goes on as it has for the past 20 years. PEP will always be PEP. I'm tired.



Hole in my heart
String through it, find the golden centre
Laugh.
I scream and shout and I want
People to hear me
Hear me
Love me
Fingers racing across the board
Music streams in second waves and the hole grows
Bigger than the one for love
The hole of emptiness
I don't want this
Try to forgive
Myself today and tomorrow
It will be better
It never will
Never feel fingers tracing my lips
Hands through my hair
A soul with mine
Timing is everything
Love is everything
I am not the centre
Laugh
- PEP