Dedicated to Candz ;)
Well... think of it as a bday song to you... it's a sad song though...
ah well...

Living in the Real World

The sky's high for a reason
I don't think I wanna pry
It's like the birds telling you
If you aint got wings then you don't deserve to fly

I apologize for dreaming
It changes everything we know
Do you still remember we were
Counting angel wings on virgin snow

When I find my heart is broken
All the green then turns to blue
That's the colour of a tearful cloud
A wish that can't come true

And you told me that the wonders
of the world was like a lullaby
A nightingale in the summer night
Well nightingale, pls tell me why

And I know... goodbyes are the hardest things to say
And I'll try... to understand why you walked the other way
But please... turn to me and touch me just one more time
It would be one fine last memory
And I can live in the real world
I can live in the real world

Songs make little impact when
We've closed off the radio bar
It's like shooting straight past two moons
to catch that ever-falling star

It's quite a circus sitting around
with really nothing much to say
I've been there and back
And I tell you what, we're not just there to play

And I know... goodbyes are the hardest things to say
And I'll try... to understand why you walked the other way
But please... turn to me and touch me just one more time
It would be one fine last memory
And I can live in the real world
I can live in the real world

Pull all stops and take the bus now I don't care
I see my dreams turn into dust now, still you're there
And if I had a picture frame
Would you please give me your name
And the Gods will cry just one last time for
you and me and the angels in the snow

And I know... goodbyes are the hardest things to say
And I'll try... to understand why you walked the other way
But please... turn to me and touch me just one more time
It would be one fine last memory
And I can live in the real world
I can live in the real world

No more a memory
Living in the real world

Goodbye little girl of dreaming
I thought you were good to me
A silver kiss on my lips beneath
the shade of love's only tree

You told my life as if a story
that could make the stars wanna cry
I don't know stars all that well
But I know the sky's still pretty high

Ee Pin

Some things to settle first.

To begin...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST CANDICE CHAM something something.

You're a lady who has stolen my heart too many times, and after taken it, you don't seem to want to return it. I have to pay you for it. Bad Candz.

Being an adult doesn't really suck my sweet chocolately cherie ;)

Without further ado.... this is the birthday girl!



.... oops? ha...ha...
This is...erm... candice...



Now that THAT'S out of the way, time for the more interesting aspects of my life. Namely... PIRATES. Which is probably the most fun game I've have ever played recently. It is fun. So damn fun! Sailing the seven seas, all that swashbuckling adventure! Robbing the rich to give to me! And marrying Spanish babes. It's so damn fun!

That's it for my interesting life, suffice to say, gambling really doesnt go with the do.

I had a nice chat with a fren from Singapore. She's a budding journalist, a second-place karaoke winner and a pretty lil lady with a heart of gold. She's also a veteran of the many rigors of true love. She believes herself not ready to go into a true relationship with THE ONE.

THE ONE. A term that sounds both daunting and horrificly romantic at the same time. People view THE ONE with apprehension mixed with a large dose of anticipation. It's like waiting for your name to be called out at a contest. Guys may wanna find THE ONE cause they wanna settle down, have babies, leave the legacy behind with someone they love...or not. Most guys hope to never find THE ONE simply because once found, THE OTHERS will no longer be an integral part of their lives. As bachelor-mates like to proclaim to the 'happy' groom... the pastures will never be green again.
Gals on the other hand...bag, nvm, they want to find THE ONE. Who has not dreamt of it? It's like winning the beauty contest, plus getting free money to shop! In an expensive dress! I find it sad... and noble. To pursue such a goal and actually finding it. That takes guts, committment and damn good luck.

On the record, I want to find THE ONE and love her forever. Off the record... I'm terrified.

On a different note... I hate being a second-hand friend. It's always like this and has been plaguing me for a while. A long while mind you. I am a second-hand fren. A backup fren. To most pple cause most assume I'm there. Taken for granted.
When I talk to pple, I have to initiate conversation first. A hello. A how are you. A snide comment. To grab their precious attention and then hopeful get into some conversation. On MSN, on the fone. I'm always the person doing it. I am the one having to catch up on gossip. I am the one organizing meetings and getting pple to go. The only things I get invited to are... Birthday Dinners. I mean, come on... is it really that hard to just say 'Hi'?

Peeved I'm sure.

I really shouldn't be Blogging. On the other hand, I should have something meaningful to say when I blog.

But I don't, which skews things a little. And I don't really wanna finish 'Speaker for the Dead' so quickly or play WOW just yet. So let's chat about inane things shall we?

How about the many things in a person's life? The different aspects that form up my semi-pitiable existence.

Money: Well, I was happy with my Casual job at the bookstore. Was cause now, they are cutting casual hours. It's pretty sucky, am not getting the hours I want. I need the hours, not becos of the money though that amenity is pretty important as well... very if I am to survive; but becos it gets pretty boring when you have NUTS to do. So I prob need another job... not good when others are doing better as well. Envy jumps in and affairs start and it gets messy messy.

Social: Am not in the Top 100 Bachelors. I have no idea what Im doing wrong. Maybe I smell.

Gadgets: Well, my PS2 is missing... it's sad... I think the guy stole it. Oh wait.... juz found out he's in Japan... well then.. it's entirely my fault then. Pfft. Am not going to WOW (World of Warcraft.. yes I know it's not a verb). It's expensive and I have too many committments at the moment.

Love: Non-existent so let's skip that.

Ambitions: Other than the missing job and money woes, I am doing ok for my writing. Getting my name in places and my shorts are coming along slowly. Give me a year... should get something out I hope. Come on talent... you can do it!

Other stuff of metaphysical thought: I like lemon meringue pie.


ARENT YOU TIRED OF LOOKING INTO MY LIFE? GO HOME!

My cousin and her husband have arrived into the Burwood household. Soon, they will embark on a perilous journey of eating, sight-seeing, shopping, eating, eating, shopping, driving, eating which will of course make them... a little fatter than usual.

Also, Larc rocks. Awake rocks. I love Larc~en~ciel and I love Awake. Wanna review it soon.

And am now listening to some weird stuff from a band called The Eccentric Opera. I mean... the Bolero in there is really... 0_0

What is it about Karaoke(ing) that keeps bringing me back? I mean, everytime I go to one, I end up having a sore throat the next day, I beggar myself and I beggar myself. Having no money is no fun at all, no siree... I mean, where the hell would I buy porridge?

But I detract.

Karaoke is fun. I guess in its own smelly, alcohol-filled, bad singing way. With the right company singing good songs badly or bad songs well, it becomes another fellowship-bonding thing. Too deep for me at this time. I'm only an Arts student.
But yes, that's what keeps me coming back... that and belting out "WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS" aka Freddie Mercury style. Dammit, wanna sing Bohemian Rhapsody.

Had a nice chat with my colleague at work about disney songs. Remembered how DARK Dumbo was and how Sleeping Beauty is prob the prettiest of the princesses. Well, it was boring at the store, what are 2 hot-blooded young adults to do?

Realised I'm not as funny as I once was. I'm serious, I've sorta mellowed down, especially with all these problems at hand. Oh yay, I'm depressing myself again, a trait which I find myself more familiar with, not necessarily a good thing unfortunately. On the plus side, I'm almost done with the 1st draft of a new short I'm working on. Almost done meaning I doubt it will be complete anytime soon. Ah dammit, I'm doing it again!

BTW, check this out. I love Rajaton. I need Rajaton. I need a credit card... pls...

And finally... LARC's new album is out!!!! It's called Awake... and I've just downloaded it ;)