Gonna whine, so bear with me. Waitamin, this is my blog, go away if u cant then.

I walk along the street and I see couples, couples, couples everywhere. WHERE DID THEY ALL COME FROM??? Well, that's not exactly the issue here. The thing that irks me, is that I'm not part of it. Something must have gone wrong. I must have screwed up somewhere. I see secondary school kids, yes I call them kids, they are like 5 years my junior, secondary sch kids walking around holding hands. I see Junior College kids (yes, still kids) having romantic dinners in fancy restaurants 3 days after orientation. I see Uni/Working pple (pple now) cuddling up in the MRT/Bus/Bench/EVERYWHERE ELSE. And I wonder: where did I go wrong? What did I not do that well, screwed up this life. Was I not responsive enough? Did I not take action? What what what? Tell me! Pple say it's not my time yet, I'm tired you know. Tired of love or lack thereof.

Maybe I should have taken my chances, rolled the dice. I was a mummy's boy dammit! And I was shy. Rolling the dice aint the way I lived. I should have hugged my childhood sweetheart tight, should have asked the girl in the front row 4 columns away in my class in sec sch.. to a dinner, I should have not be scared and asked the girl standing next to me during assembly.. to somewhere, anywhere. Or just shout out "I LIKE YOU". No regrets. There is a semblance of truth in that. But that's all in the movies too. I'm not brave, nor impulsive. I'm a charlaton, a fraud... i cant even spell charlaton right, worse... I have no guts, though the intestines work well. ARGH, I'm juz uselessly funny. THAT'S NOT GOOD.

Should haves. I hate that, hate playing what ifs. Maybe I should (there's that word again) just do stuff. What harm? Ego, self esteem, lower regions when they get kicked, pimples from alcohol on face, the usual. Sigh. No regrets huh?

Finally, to sum up. I want love. Requited love pls. Or some with expensive dinners and sex. Or just good ole cuddling, I like cuddling, nice, cuddly and warm.

Song now: "When your lover has gone" Stacey Kent

Quote of the post:

" Moons and junes and ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev’ry fairy tale comes real
I’ve looked at love that way

But now it’s just another show
You leave ’em laughing when you go
And if you care, don’t let them know
Don’t give yourself away

I’ve looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It’s love’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know love at all"

Joni Mitchell, Both Sides Now

I had a dilemma today. Was quite bad, made me think for quite a long while.

I didn't know where to go to cut my hair. You see, I like stability, dun really like change much. I recognize its neccessity, but I can't be
1) bothered
2) I dun like change.

So I had a dilemma. If I were to become just that little bit more trendy, I had to deviate from things I liked because of its constancy, and well... change. Change is good they say. But u noe wat? It's scary. There I was, trying to figure out whether having a normal cut at a barbers or having one at QB or any other salon, would be better. Barber = normal cut at cheap prices. Salon = different cuts at not so cheap prices. The word different gives me the shivers already. Routine, I like. Different hair, may or may not like. That's it. The may not part. What ifs. U noe the drill.

So what did I do? Cut my hair at the salon, with a similar style as usual.

Got a bottle of good shampoo though. Guy said my hair was oily. Well, he's the expert.

Song now: Suikoden main theme

Quote of the post: "I'm a singer of great expectations"

Wow, forgot to blog. Heh, ah well, will get back on track sometime or rather.

Soul Calibre 2 rox. It rocked when I played it several months ago. It rocks now even. Been playing it with some friends in the arcade, hard man. I can barely get past stage one. Stupid admin jumped up the fighting level to max. Sick, juz sick. But fun playing with other pple. Thinking games can be a pain :)

On the subject of games, Jedi 3 now. Hopefully can install.

Go watch Under the Tuscan Sun, not bad.

And that's it. Go away.

Song now: Shell (Bana)

Quote of the post: "They built the railway between Venice and (forgot) before there was even a train. They knew it would come." (Under the Tuscan Sun)

Didn't really have an eventful day other than getting my eyes checked and waiting for my sis for an hour.

1) Getting eyes checked is fun.
2) I'm serious!
3) All those gadgets

Got a problem with finding a place to cut my hair. Where oh where oh where??? Should I try the 10 min ones? Should I???

Song now: "She was dreaming in the rain"

Quote of the post: "Don't you understand yet? She's dead!" (A Tale of 2 sisters)

Btw: For those who like games and game music, go http://www.vgmix.com/

Sunday is FAMILY DAY. I have to remember that next time I organize stuff.

Btw, Paycheck aint that bad...at first. John Woo = doves.

Shall not talk anymore.. silence is golden as they say. Like my nose.

Song now: Sorrow (Evo)

Quote of the post: suppose to be something about time here... but I can't remember.. ah well...

Scryed is nice. Well, so far.

And I've finished writing a chapter today. Not bad for a day's work. ONWARDS!!!!!!!

Interesting fact. Fren's bro bought Aragon's sword for $595. He's like 13 yrs old. Wheeeeee. I like money.

Song now: Girl from Ipanema

Quote of the post: "Scryed"