Last night, I talked to a big guy
the big guy who asked a father to kill his son
the big guy whom people all over the world loved
people all over the world hated
people all over the world didn't much care for
and I talked

I told the big guy that it was hard to talk
I do not talk
about my dreams
about my life
about me
I do not like to
share myself to whomever,
not even to myself
A rule bounded in iron
rusting but strong
that is me

I apologized for the wait
for the wants
for the needs I desired
I wanted so much
yet had so little, knew so little
I needed that road
so I asked for a road
And just like a typical conversation
the big guy did not answer
Nor did I expect him to
I liked the silence, the stale air
of a world that simply did not care
about my dreams
about my life
about me

To steal from Simon of Paul,
the writer of graceland with a necklace of tears
That's the way it's always been
That's the way I like it
and that's how I want it to be

Hey shan, thnx for a nice talk yesterday. U aint that bad after all ;) Goreng pisang yar?

This is the story of a dog. Well, not much of a story than an account of a dog, who suddenly came into my life, left an impact, and disappeared again... for how long, I do not know.



Alright, ignoring the horrendous face that is moi... the cute thing is CJ. A Jack Russel. Cute as hell. And she is!!! So darn cute. The way she just pads over and looks at me quietly. The way she sleeps if I have her on my lap. She's soooo.... angelic.

Then she goes psycho and tries to kill me and does 1432956 laps round the dining table and tries to eat pple, things and pple. We used newspapers to hit her, we tried spraying her with water... all of which she shrugged off after a while. Only sure fire thing that works is throwing her around. But that sudden change is scary. Devil, angel, angel devil. And now... she's gone. She has a special place in my heart now.. .feel like owning a dog... apart from the taking care of part. We'll see. Come back CJ!!!!

And...

Ee,

Thank you for submitting "The boy at the end of the world" to the
Fortean Bureau. Unfortunately, this story isn't quite right for the
Fortean Bureau, so I'm going to pass. Thanks again, and best
of luck to you with it elsewhere.

Jeremy Tolbert
Sarah Tolbert
Editors-in-Chief
Fortean Bureau
http://www.forteanbureau.com

My first rejection letter... how cool is that!!!! Pretty soon, I'll have a whole lot of them!! And I can recycle them!!! If they were made of pple... which they aren't. Go figure.

Work is not going well... i keep not wanting to do this (I AM BLOGGING!!!), I'm on schedule.. but it's going slow... could be faster.. but I can't be bothered. ARGH.

And finished Hikaru no Go today! All 74? epis!!!! I am BO LIAO! Yay!

Essay is not going well. I procrastinate too much. Well, at least im sort of on schedule... now to meet my word count.

Troy in 15 minutes

Harry Potter Latest movie in 15 minutes

Genius... absolutely genius. Go read. GO. NOW. Or i eat u.

Y are pple so obsessed with killing themselves? Why? I dun get it. Is it a thrill? To feel pain, to just, end it all. That's quite a loser way to go. Seriously. Has life treated someone so bad, that you must take your own life. Do they hate life so much? Are they bored? If so, go do something about it. Dun go... jumping down a cliff. WTF. I dun even noe why im even bothering about this. Stupid.

Nothing interesting to blog about.... and my legs ache... I dunno why either...

and and... I'm doomed for essay and exams!!!!!

Sections of songs that leave an impression

"Moons and Junes and ferris wheels
the dizzy dancing way you feel
as every fairy tale comes real
I looked at love that way.
But now it's just another show
you leave them laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away."

- Both Sides Now (Joni Mitchell)

"and heaven's not enough
if when I'm there I don't remember you
and heaven does enough
you think you know it
and it uses you"

- Heaven's not Enough (Tim Jensen)

"Never seen a blue sky
Yeah I can feel it reaching out
And moving closer
There's something about blue
Asked myself what it's all for
You know the funny thing about it
I couldn't answer
No I couldn't answer"

- Blue (Tim Jensen)

"Mama, I don't wanna die,
Sometimes wished I've never been born at all"

- Bohemian Rhapsody (Freddy Mercury)

"Maybe there's a God above
And all I ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
And it's not a cry you can hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah"

- Hallelujah (Rufus Wainwright)

all i can think of for the moment. all of them inspiring. very.
oh man candz, wait til ur 21, then u start to worry. worry. and worry. wat fun.