I am ashamed and inspired an depressed at the same time. Like... what the hell am I doing with my life? What?

Nothing thats wat.

No helping the poor. No saving kids from floods. Not even joining a damn club. There's a mouse in me that trembles at the fear of uselessness... and yet merely trembles without doing something about it.

It is disgusting.

I am sad and it irks me. 24 years and what do I have to show for it?

Yeah, have a think and gimme an answer. It wun come I assure you.